deep alignment

There are (at least) two things I know to be true these days about deep tiredness that comes from not living “fully in alignment”. One: Our feelings don’t always reflect the reality of our situation, but they so often shape our reality. Our thoughts are incredibly powerful and can create truth in something that may not actually be your truth. And two: Our cells know before our brains do if something is in (or, perhaps more so, out of) alignment. And yet, how often do we force things because of expectations (self imposed or otherwise) we’ve set?

Living “fully in alignment”, to me, has changed in that it’s not just living your truth (since multiple things can be true at once, and, as stated above, most often our narratives don’t hold the truth), but rather, being so present/mindful with yourself, that you can call yourself out when your thoughts and actions are going against what is authentic to you, within your value system, when a boundary has been crossed, or when you’re not in integrity.

Lately, there has been so much change - personally, professionally, globally and there is a murkiness of unknown still pending as we start this new year. Yet, in all of it, I’ve been feeling relatively at peace. Impatient, sure. Eager, also. Nervous, definitely. But also, at peace. My aha moment was in discovering that it’s because with each tough conversation, every decision within my belief system, any and all change in behaviour that is being honest to me in that moment, I’m aligning with myself. And, wow. That feels so so good.

Here’s to:

-Trusting your gut and speaking up (even to yourself) instead of silencing yourself, or letting yourself be silent.

-Not backing down from what you believe in but not over-exerting yourself in what’s not yours to battle.

-Being intentional with what you agree to - that it’s If it’s not a resounding, full-body, expansive, yes, it is a no. (That can include changing your mind.)

-Clearing the altar - meaning, taking quiet pockets of time to yourself to rid of energy that doesn’t belond to you, clearing out the noise, getting back to your essence.

-Giving yourself “soul time”. (That’s my take on self care for 2025).

-A daily practice of meditating on your purpose, 'words’, intentions, to align your energy, choices and actions towards those North Stars.

In this moment, writing this, I’m ok with lack of control (in theory), though I’m sure that in the day-to-day, the paralysis will creep in. So I’m writing to my future self now - and if it resonates with you, to you as well - to remind myself/us that I/we have full agency over how I/we respond to what’s happening around me/us. And that I/we choose to respond with grounded feet, an open heart, and trust in my/our sense of self.